* starry ;

out in the galaxy
a star
lost her way

she landed on earth
and thus
began her journey
in search of
a fellow star

a star
who knows
exactly what
she wants

a star
who knows
exactly wad
she feels

years passed
nothing was found
she perserved
and continued

up till now
she is
still trying......

starry

Thursday, November 03, 2005

1:00 AM

now exactly 1 am.. cnt go to slp.. might as well blog smth.. i reali dun understand me at all.. sometimes i feel vry "high".. den i can luff and be happy for all i wan.. bud once de night is nearing, i becum moody.. alot of useless thots juz appear in my mind.. reali a vry big difference in me between de day and de night.. y is dis so??

feel so helpless, so agitated.. bud wad can i do?? i'm just like a tv set.. sometimes showing comedies.. den i'll luff like a mad person.. sometimes showing tragedies.. den i'll oso cry like a mad person.. maybe dats de reason y like tv so much.. it takes me away frm reality and into a fantasy.. dis suits my character too well.. running away frm pressure and difficulties.. den aft dat, finding excuses.. tried to change.. maybe its a habit of mine.. hu noes?? maybe de innermost part of my heart..

kip fantasizing.. although i one dat dey are reali onli part of fantasy.. Dreams are to be smashed into pieces.. maybe one day, one day, i reali can find de someone dat is in de innermost of my heart..

here i am crapping agn.. haiz.. CRAP!!

loneliness is hard for me to overcome.. cuz, u would nv be anywhere near..

the stars left no glow;--*