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Saturday, January 22, 2005

11:40 PM

todae.. alot of things happened..

online in de morning.. saw 2 ppl nick.. happy ever after.. after duno how mani big rounds, finalli together..

go grandmother house in de afternoon.. den ate alot.. went to slp at around 5.. b4 slping, i was reading a book and listening to my uncle scolding my cousin.. he so cham.. juz like me.. cuz my uncle likes her youngest daughter beta.. den wadever happens, de 2 older brothers will get scolded.. i pity de 2 brothers lorz.. cuz dey same like me.. when i was young, my mother and aunties (father side de) likes my sister.. even my grandmother( father side de).. (my mother side de all treated me vry gd cuz i de eldest grandson.. hehez..) den evrything i got scolded regardless of whether i am in de wrong notx.. den de youngest daughter same as my sister.. in front of adults so guai.. den when no adults, bad as ever.. nobodi can tahan her xcept for my dat particular uncle.. haiz.. see him so sad den i dun bear to see den go slp.. den when i woke up, 7 liaoz.. dey ask me go out eat.. den when i go out, dey joke wif me by saeing dey ate finish and nv buoght mine.. i knew dey were joking buden i juz woke up den dey immediately make fun of me.. den i slam de door quietly den go bck to ''slp''.. den duno y cry.. maybe tink of de stress my family hve wif my aunties and my grandmother ( father side de).. den like todae onli left 1 packet of oil chicken rice at de vendor.. actualli wan buy 4 packets de.. den left 1 packet, my ah yi bought dat onli packet give me eat.. den dey eat smth else.. if is my father side de, sure i'll eat smth else de.. my father side de relatives make me stressd.. alot..

cuz grandmother living wif us mahz.. den evryday will get unexpected visits frm aunties.. den our daily life, evrybodi will noe.. wad time u wake up, wad time u slp.. den last time got maid still okae.. de maid will take care of my grandmother daily needs.. den now no maid, nid to worry evryday hu is cooking for my grandmother.. whether is she alone at home.. de list goes on and on.. den maid left, de number of visits oso increases.. den my mother oso stressed up lorz.. sometimes she go work den vry late cum bck den my aunties will duno sae wad to each other.. sure is smth bad bout my mother de.. den i hear le will go to my room and cry.. still cnt cry loudly.. more worse is deir children de studies vry gd.. and den in dis sembawang estate, got 4 aunties.. den de oth 2 aunties staes in bedok.. den evrytime cum my hse.. i see dem auto is go my room and do nth.. see de wall.. den naturally will go slp.. haiz.. frm young, i not scared of my parents.. i is scared of my aunties.. 6 together.. so evrydae aft skl especially thursday and friday i dun wan go home.. scared see auntie.. saturday and sunday more worse.. dats de reason for keep asking ppl to go out wif me.. dun wan see aunties de face..

went home ard 8.. den went to pack my room.. particularly my 5566 de drawer onli.. remembered dat kok swee still haben return me de 5566 second ablum den chin yong haben return me xi jie shao nian.. got alot of magazines on 5566.. Reachin $500 dollars on 5566 le.. wah.. reali alot of $$..den pack until 9.45 den online.. immediately kelvin cum tok to me.. confirm with me smth.. someone was very sad.. i oso feel sad for him.. whe i tink of his plight, wanted to cry.. buden when in de morning, heard day de 2 of dem together, i feel happy until wan cry.. den told ws if i cried now, i will be crying bcuz i'm sad and i'm happy.. so might as well not cry..
advice to him.. dere is someone out dere which is reali match-maked for u in heaven.. do not ever despair.. try to stand up once u hve fall down.. wad's over is over.. broodin over it does no one gd.. u are sad bud de earth is still rotaing.. evrything is still goin on normally.. nth stops for u.. try to make urself feel beta.. u still hve friends.. nth is over..

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